Rarities

The holiday season is back. This one is starting out a bit better than last year's holiday season... for one, my mother is out of town for the thanksgiving holiday, so her usual complaining and such won't be here. a peaceful holiday, what a rarity. it's just me and my dad this year, and food we like to eat, another rarity... there are other reasons that make this holiday season brighter than past ones, of course, but i'll not go into those.

Christmas is still up in the air. no idea what will be going on then. i have some ideas, but again, nothing is certain... well, some things are certain... i'm fairly sure that the entire family will be together, but where we will be for christmas is still undetermined. we'll see, i suppose.





--as always

Just hanging by a moment

Forewarning: one of the most forward posts in a while.





I'm falling in love.
which in itself is frightening for me, and to be quite honest, i'm having some trouble letting myself fall for someone. i think i'm frightened because i don't want to let someone in and then get hurt, which is silly of course because if you can't love, then you can't truly be loved... not for your core self, anyways... but i've been slowly letting myself fall for him. it's like i'm taking baby steps based on preconceived notions about men and dating and all that, and he keeps proving them wrong. proving me wrong. he's slowly rebuilding my faith that i could find what i'm looking for. so, i'm taking baby steps. i'm letting myself fall. it's frightening, but i'm doing it. i'm taking each moment as it comes, and thus my Song of the Day:



"Hanging By A Moment" by Lifehouse

"Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
Chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me, now

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

There's nothing else to lose
There's nothing else to find
There's nothing in the world
That can change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
Chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

Just hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment here with you"



--as always