as per a discussion with Smity today on the effects of that awful book about shiny vampires, it has been determined that the zombie apocalypse will be an effect of said book. i went to the school today to chill and say goodbye to some of my teachers and i saw Gracie while i was there. then, when Gracie and i were passing by the band room we caught a glimpse of Smity and absolutely HAD to stop in and say hello. so after Gracie had to go and have lunch with her aunt Smity and started to discuss the awfulness of said book, which was brought about by my concern that my unknowing aunt and uncle from michigan might happen to get a copy for me as a graduation gift... blegh....
so while discussing the horrendous atrocity that is that book it was brought up that certain people are most likely rolling in there graves... ie: Shakespeare. :) i adore Shakespeare... anyways, this is what will end up happening:
Shakespeare will become so upset that he will rise from his grave, and of course he will be a zombie, and he will start attacking twilight fangirls (and fanboys). and of course, he will be moaning and what not (the way zombies do) in perfect iambic pentameter. (we then segwayed into contemplating how cool it would be to see Shakespeare as a zombie, but from a very high rooftop of from behind a very large blockade of some sort; for obvious reasons...) it has thusly been determined that zombie Shakespeare will start infecting everyone, as zombies tend to do, and that will lead to the infestation and subsequent zombie apocalypse; and all because of that awful book...
and so there you have it. the cause of the zombie apocalypse: bad literature.
--as always
Friday, 29 May 2009
Thursday, 28 May 2009
Today is a good day
today is a good day
not only are we graduating today, but it is also my third spiritual birthday. the fact that i didnt have to go to school today, and the fact that i will never have to go back to QHHS unless i want to makes this day immensely better already. :) and considering all of the things going on today, better than this year's biological birthday... (no offense to those who were there)
looking back on all of it, my high school years, i am grateful i became a disciple when i did. just reflecting on my personality, there are a lot of disasters that i avoided. ... i can think of a few right now, unfortunately there is no one who knows about those things that reads this blog.... reflecting on where i was before and where i am now, i am so grateful that i made it this far; and truth be told, it wasnt easy. we all have our ups and downs
for all of you who know what it took for me to get where i am today: you know a deeper part of my past and of me than most people do... and to those of you who dont know: ask me some time, it may just surprise you.
thanks for all your love. today is going to be, and already is, great!!
--as always
not only are we graduating today, but it is also my third spiritual birthday. the fact that i didnt have to go to school today, and the fact that i will never have to go back to QHHS unless i want to makes this day immensely better already. :) and considering all of the things going on today, better than this year's biological birthday... (no offense to those who were there)
looking back on all of it, my high school years, i am grateful i became a disciple when i did. just reflecting on my personality, there are a lot of disasters that i avoided. ... i can think of a few right now, unfortunately there is no one who knows about those things that reads this blog.... reflecting on where i was before and where i am now, i am so grateful that i made it this far; and truth be told, it wasnt easy. we all have our ups and downs
for all of you who know what it took for me to get where i am today: you know a deeper part of my past and of me than most people do... and to those of you who dont know: ask me some time, it may just surprise you.
thanks for all your love. today is going to be, and already is, great!!
--as always
Sunday, 17 May 2009
More reason than most...
Well, it seems like we are all writing one of these...
but i think i will break the tradition just a bit. ;)
it seems as if i am always faced with something new and i am always forced to make a decision, and it is never really an easy decision not too long ago i wrote about choices, and i feel as if i am being forced to make another choice. (i know that the choice is and was yours dear, and i do not fault you for that. somehow i feel as if i should be a part of this choice, and i feel that there should be something i am able to do even though i know that there is not)
to the circle:
everyone seems to be saying goodbye and talking about change and things of the sort. i, however, am going to talk about something a bit different. yes we are all moving along with our lives and we will have to part from each other physically, but we are all still the same people. we will all change and go in different directions, but we will all have the circle with us no matter where we go. i have no doubt that we will all stay in touch and i have no doubt that we will continue to get together and hang out. our get togethers may not be a frequent as they are now, but we will certainly have them (and if in the future you are not part of them or do not want to be, then you are lame and do not deserve to call yourself part of the circle... that is all) i know that we will all stay friends and that we will never forget one another, and i would have it any other way. :)
many of us are going to AVC for a few years which will definitely make getting together easier for the time being, and when the time comes for us to go off to university we, i am sure, will work something else out in order for us all to stay in contact and to see each other. so, no worries.
and now for the heartfelt statement: you have all been an amazing comfort to me. i love you all. ;)
to those that are staying here and going to AVC:
i will see you over the summer and then, most likely, in class at the college... oh, and dakota, we seriously do need to take that fencing class together second semester! sooo much fun!
on a side note (a very different one) and to one who is very close to me:
where you choose to go is up to you. you have always known that just as well as i have. we were not always the best of friends, but when we became friends i loved you as a sister. i wont say that i am angry, because that would not be an accurate description, rather: disappointed. dont be bitter, bitterness will only hurt you in the end, not to mention alienate those around you. i tell you everything, and truthfully, it hurt that you lied to me. but i forgive you. i will always forgive you. ... you will be challenged greatly in these next 26 days, and i hope that you were challenged today. i know you know that i did not share everything today, but what i shared was enough for those that listened. if you take anything away from me, take the knowledge of what i have done and what i have gone through; not only then, but recently as well. if you dont want to make the same decisions i did and if you dont want to give that up (even though God knows i didnt want to) i will understand and i would not fault you for it. it is a difficult decision and i know you've seen what i've been going through. if you dont want to do that, i dont blame you. but at the same time realize the reason why i am going through all this. i made my choice.
i cant rebuild this, only you can. and if you want to leave it, that is your choice. it always has been and it always will be. one thing i ask is that you do not do anything because you feel bad or because someone tells you to. do it because you want to and for no other reason. this is the one area where being utterly selfish is acceptable, but dont do it for any other reason than you.
...i remember a time approximately 3 years ago, when i was given the privilege to be such a major part of such a major day. it meant a lot to both of us at one time... i will never forget that and i will never stop being your friend and being there for you, no matter what you choose. i want the best for you, above all... make choices for you. and remember that you will always have me as a friend.
...... this will never end, which i am sure you know, but as a 'forewarning' and to quote a good book and a good movie: "nothing ends... nothing ever ends." i will always be here either way you choose. no matter when, no matter where. thats a promise.
--as always
but i think i will break the tradition just a bit. ;)
it seems as if i am always faced with something new and i am always forced to make a decision, and it is never really an easy decision not too long ago i wrote about choices, and i feel as if i am being forced to make another choice. (i know that the choice is and was yours dear, and i do not fault you for that. somehow i feel as if i should be a part of this choice, and i feel that there should be something i am able to do even though i know that there is not)
to the circle:
everyone seems to be saying goodbye and talking about change and things of the sort. i, however, am going to talk about something a bit different. yes we are all moving along with our lives and we will have to part from each other physically, but we are all still the same people. we will all change and go in different directions, but we will all have the circle with us no matter where we go. i have no doubt that we will all stay in touch and i have no doubt that we will continue to get together and hang out. our get togethers may not be a frequent as they are now, but we will certainly have them (and if in the future you are not part of them or do not want to be, then you are lame and do not deserve to call yourself part of the circle... that is all) i know that we will all stay friends and that we will never forget one another, and i would have it any other way. :)
many of us are going to AVC for a few years which will definitely make getting together easier for the time being, and when the time comes for us to go off to university we, i am sure, will work something else out in order for us all to stay in contact and to see each other. so, no worries.
and now for the heartfelt statement: you have all been an amazing comfort to me. i love you all. ;)
to those that are staying here and going to AVC:
i will see you over the summer and then, most likely, in class at the college... oh, and dakota, we seriously do need to take that fencing class together second semester! sooo much fun!
on a side note (a very different one) and to one who is very close to me:
where you choose to go is up to you. you have always known that just as well as i have. we were not always the best of friends, but when we became friends i loved you as a sister. i wont say that i am angry, because that would not be an accurate description, rather: disappointed. dont be bitter, bitterness will only hurt you in the end, not to mention alienate those around you. i tell you everything, and truthfully, it hurt that you lied to me. but i forgive you. i will always forgive you. ... you will be challenged greatly in these next 26 days, and i hope that you were challenged today. i know you know that i did not share everything today, but what i shared was enough for those that listened. if you take anything away from me, take the knowledge of what i have done and what i have gone through; not only then, but recently as well. if you dont want to make the same decisions i did and if you dont want to give that up (even though God knows i didnt want to) i will understand and i would not fault you for it. it is a difficult decision and i know you've seen what i've been going through. if you dont want to do that, i dont blame you. but at the same time realize the reason why i am going through all this. i made my choice.
i cant rebuild this, only you can. and if you want to leave it, that is your choice. it always has been and it always will be. one thing i ask is that you do not do anything because you feel bad or because someone tells you to. do it because you want to and for no other reason. this is the one area where being utterly selfish is acceptable, but dont do it for any other reason than you.
...i remember a time approximately 3 years ago, when i was given the privilege to be such a major part of such a major day. it meant a lot to both of us at one time... i will never forget that and i will never stop being your friend and being there for you, no matter what you choose. i want the best for you, above all... make choices for you. and remember that you will always have me as a friend.
...... this will never end, which i am sure you know, but as a 'forewarning' and to quote a good book and a good movie: "nothing ends... nothing ever ends." i will always be here either way you choose. no matter when, no matter where. thats a promise.
--as always
Thursday, 14 May 2009
...
what does one do when the walls of ones life seem to be falling down? it seems to me like i've been here before. crawling out of the rubble isn't what is hard, but what if the walls cant rebuild themselves? how do i rebuild them? is it even possible? ... and of course, the answer is no, if they fall, they do it of their own accord... which is the saddest part... for all of us.
don't do this to me. you and i know the truth, but what they will say will hurt ten times more and you know it. it's not my fault if you don't talk to me....
i have nothing more to say. and this is the part where we just sit and stare at each other...
don't do this to me. you and i know the truth, but what they will say will hurt ten times more and you know it. it's not my fault if you don't talk to me....
i have nothing more to say. and this is the part where we just sit and stare at each other...
Wait, maybe the answer's looking for you
"Hold On" by Yes
"Justice to the left of you
Justice to the right
Speak when you are spoken to
But don't pretend you're right
This life's not for living
It's for fighting and for war
No matter what the truth is
Hold on to what is yours
Jigsaw puzzle traitors
Set to spill the beans
Constitution screw up
Shattering the dreams
Blood flows in the desert
Dark citadels burning too
Watch! Look over your shoulder
This one is strictly for you
Hold on, hold on
Wait, maybe the answer's looking for you
Hold on, hold on
Wait! Take your time, think it through
Yes I can make it through!
Hold on, hold on
Sunshine shine on through
Hold on, hold on
Sunshine shine on you
See it through
Talk the simple smile
Such platonic eye
How they drown in incomplete capacity
Strangest of them all
When the feeling calls
How we drown in stylistic audacity
Charge the common ground
Round and round and round
We living in gravity
Shake. We shake so hard
How we laugh so loud
When we reach we believe in eternity
I believe in eternity!
Hold on, hold on
Wait, take your time, see it through
Hold on, hold on
Wait, maybe a chance is looking for you
Hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on
Sunshine shine on shine on you
Sunshine shine on through
Sunshine shine on shine on you
Sunshine shine on through
Hold on, hold on
Wait, take your time, see it through
Hold on, hold on
Wait, maybe the answer's looking for you
Sunshine shine on shine on you
Sunshine shine on through"
i like Yes... i was supposed to write this yesterday, but that didn't end well... in fact, it ended with me missing all of first and most of second period today. lol
it's ok, i'm feeling better now, not completely, but the urge to hurl is significantly diminished. :) today was interesting to say the least... and here is what made it that way:
- woke up feeling horrible
(got up a 5:30 and felt dizzy, had a head ache and almost hurled all over my floor, mom still made me go to school)
- spent a good 45 mins having breakfast with my mom
(she came into my room and woke me up at 7, because i had decided to go back to bed, and we ate a nice little breakfast together until around 8 when i went to go get ready for school. it was nice)
- got to school at the end of second period
(that was kinda cool, except for the whole nausea thing, but getting out of french was a plus)
- went into the band room/choir room for the third time this week to practice the french songs
(only this time we actually sang in front of Foley, which was interesting... he said he really liked our singing. plus, this was the first time that the whole group was together)
- had a very interesting conversation with Danny and Arian about a vast number of relatively amusing things...
(that's all i'm going to say)
and i am sure that it will continue to get better... after all, tonight is senior awards night. whoo.
:)
so, why did i pick this song? i dont know... maybe because i have been listening to Yes for a week straight now and this one just stood out to me. to me this song is all about choices and how making choices can be difficult. which i can totally relate to. plus, with all of us going off to college soon, we are all going to have to make some choices... (thats not really why i picked this song, but whatever)
Choices i am facing right now (in order from least to greatest importance):
- do i fold the laundry now, or later
- should i go wake mom up from her nap
- should i stay up late tonight
- should i wear the black pants and the green shirt or the beige pants and the yellow shirt
- should i study for my physics final
- do i offer my parents an ultimatum about where i will be living when school ends
Rhetorical question:
What choices are you facing?
--as always
"Justice to the left of you
Justice to the right
Speak when you are spoken to
But don't pretend you're right
This life's not for living
It's for fighting and for war
No matter what the truth is
Hold on to what is yours
Jigsaw puzzle traitors
Set to spill the beans
Constitution screw up
Shattering the dreams
Blood flows in the desert
Dark citadels burning too
Watch! Look over your shoulder
This one is strictly for you
Hold on, hold on
Wait, maybe the answer's looking for you
Hold on, hold on
Wait! Take your time, think it through
Yes I can make it through!
Hold on, hold on
Sunshine shine on through
Hold on, hold on
Sunshine shine on you
See it through
Talk the simple smile
Such platonic eye
How they drown in incomplete capacity
Strangest of them all
When the feeling calls
How we drown in stylistic audacity
Charge the common ground
Round and round and round
We living in gravity
Shake. We shake so hard
How we laugh so loud
When we reach we believe in eternity
I believe in eternity!
Hold on, hold on
Wait, take your time, see it through
Hold on, hold on
Wait, maybe a chance is looking for you
Hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on
Sunshine shine on shine on you
Sunshine shine on through
Sunshine shine on shine on you
Sunshine shine on through
Hold on, hold on
Wait, take your time, see it through
Hold on, hold on
Wait, maybe the answer's looking for you
Sunshine shine on shine on you
Sunshine shine on through"
i like Yes... i was supposed to write this yesterday, but that didn't end well... in fact, it ended with me missing all of first and most of second period today. lol
it's ok, i'm feeling better now, not completely, but the urge to hurl is significantly diminished. :) today was interesting to say the least... and here is what made it that way:
- woke up feeling horrible
(got up a 5:30 and felt dizzy, had a head ache and almost hurled all over my floor, mom still made me go to school)
- spent a good 45 mins having breakfast with my mom
(she came into my room and woke me up at 7, because i had decided to go back to bed, and we ate a nice little breakfast together until around 8 when i went to go get ready for school. it was nice)
- got to school at the end of second period
(that was kinda cool, except for the whole nausea thing, but getting out of french was a plus)
- went into the band room/choir room for the third time this week to practice the french songs
(only this time we actually sang in front of Foley, which was interesting... he said he really liked our singing. plus, this was the first time that the whole group was together)
- had a very interesting conversation with Danny and Arian about a vast number of relatively amusing things...
(that's all i'm going to say)
and i am sure that it will continue to get better... after all, tonight is senior awards night. whoo.
:)
so, why did i pick this song? i dont know... maybe because i have been listening to Yes for a week straight now and this one just stood out to me. to me this song is all about choices and how making choices can be difficult. which i can totally relate to. plus, with all of us going off to college soon, we are all going to have to make some choices... (thats not really why i picked this song, but whatever)
Choices i am facing right now (in order from least to greatest importance):
- do i fold the laundry now, or later
- should i go wake mom up from her nap
- should i stay up late tonight
- should i wear the black pants and the green shirt or the beige pants and the yellow shirt
- should i study for my physics final
- do i offer my parents an ultimatum about where i will be living when school ends
Rhetorical question:
What choices are you facing?
--as always
Saturday, 9 May 2009
Lean On Me
Adrianne, this one is for you.
"Lean On Me" by Bill Withers
"Sometimes in our lives
We all have pain
We all have sorrow
But if we are wise
We know that there's
Always tomorrow
Lean on me
When you're not strong
And I'll be you're friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Till I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on
Please swallow your pride
If I have things
You need to borrow
For no one can fill
Those of your needs
That you won't let show
Just call on me brother when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'd understand
We all need somebody to lean on
Lean on me
When you're not strong
And I'll be you're friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Till I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on
You just call on me brother when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'd understand
We all need somebody to lean on
If there is a load
You have to bear
That you can't carry
I'm right up the road
I'll share your load
If you just call on me
Call me
If you need a friend
Call me
If you ever need a friend"
I love you dearly, sweetie, and you know that i would gladly help you with anything. so talk to me, pour out your heart. you know there are no judgments here, after all, you know everything i've done. even though i know you never will, never forget that i love you. you are my sister and my best friend. i am here for you, always and forever. that's a promise.
--as always
"Lean On Me" by Bill Withers
"Sometimes in our lives
We all have pain
We all have sorrow
But if we are wise
We know that there's
Always tomorrow
Lean on me
When you're not strong
And I'll be you're friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Till I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on
Please swallow your pride
If I have things
You need to borrow
For no one can fill
Those of your needs
That you won't let show
Just call on me brother when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'd understand
We all need somebody to lean on
Lean on me
When you're not strong
And I'll be you're friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Till I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on
You just call on me brother when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'd understand
We all need somebody to lean on
If there is a load
You have to bear
That you can't carry
I'm right up the road
I'll share your load
If you just call on me
Call me
If you need a friend
Call me
If you ever need a friend"
I love you dearly, sweetie, and you know that i would gladly help you with anything. so talk to me, pour out your heart. you know there are no judgments here, after all, you know everything i've done. even though i know you never will, never forget that i love you. you are my sister and my best friend. i am here for you, always and forever. that's a promise.
--as always
Thursday, 7 May 2009
Not your father's Star Trek
Squee!!!!!
so, today was made exponentially more epic because of Star Trek!
i arrived at the theater at around 4:30 and most of those going to see it were already there just standing around. there wasn't even a queue yet. so, finally they came and set up a queue and we all sat down at the front and waited. most of us were wearing costumes and we were all just hanging out. along in there, woody and i determined that we know the circle are mega nerds because:
- most of us were wearing costumes
- we were the queue before there was a queue
- and we call it a 'queue'
a little later a guy named Alan and some of his group of friends sat down in the line, and these are people obviously past their 30's, and they commented on how we were "too young" to know what Star Trek was... and of course we scoffed at them... but they soon proved to be a rather cool group of people, probably the coolest group of people in the theater other than the circle. they sat in the row right in front of ours and had somewhere around a dozen tribbles. so cool...
the movie itself was amazing and i will most likely be fan squeeing for a week or more. it totally warrants an encore, so i am going to go see it again tomorrow... which was always the plan, but now its reaffirmed. :) overall, the circle was the loudest group in the theater and we took up an entire row, virtually end to end. the amount of concentrated amazing made most of us, or at least Jew and i, want to self implode...
there are really no words to describe the amazingness except for exeptional amounts of squeeing and the phrase "SO AMAZING!!!" repeated over and over again... they told us that if was not our father's Star Trek, and you know what?... i am totally ok with that. all i can say is: i want more please. :)
--as always *squee*
so, today was made exponentially more epic because of Star Trek!
i arrived at the theater at around 4:30 and most of those going to see it were already there just standing around. there wasn't even a queue yet. so, finally they came and set up a queue and we all sat down at the front and waited. most of us were wearing costumes and we were all just hanging out. along in there, woody and i determined that we know the circle are mega nerds because:
- most of us were wearing costumes
- we were the queue before there was a queue
- and we call it a 'queue'
a little later a guy named Alan and some of his group of friends sat down in the line, and these are people obviously past their 30's, and they commented on how we were "too young" to know what Star Trek was... and of course we scoffed at them... but they soon proved to be a rather cool group of people, probably the coolest group of people in the theater other than the circle. they sat in the row right in front of ours and had somewhere around a dozen tribbles. so cool...
the movie itself was amazing and i will most likely be fan squeeing for a week or more. it totally warrants an encore, so i am going to go see it again tomorrow... which was always the plan, but now its reaffirmed. :) overall, the circle was the loudest group in the theater and we took up an entire row, virtually end to end. the amount of concentrated amazing made most of us, or at least Jew and i, want to self implode...
there are really no words to describe the amazingness except for exeptional amounts of squeeing and the phrase "SO AMAZING!!!" repeated over and over again... they told us that if was not our father's Star Trek, and you know what?... i am totally ok with that. all i can say is: i want more please. :)
--as always *squee*
Wednesday, 6 May 2009
So, after finishing History Paper 3...
So, after finishing History Paper 3, i realized that i should really study up on my Canadian history. i mean i dont know anything about it, except for a bit involving the Great Depression... which is a shame because Canada is a cool place. Whoo! Go Canada!
So, i'm sitting here with a little over an hour left for the test with nothing to do, so why not use some of this extra test paper, right? After all, i didnt bring my book with me. Recollecting at my wanderings during the test, i find that the major thoughts were:
- Why is Justin wearing a pink shirt?
- this test is isnt that bad... oh look! Rascism!
- wow, some people write fast...
- 'Oh that is so not sanitary' ~ after Justin dropped a tissue on the ground and then used it
- i wish i ate breakfast
- Akk! i cant get that one line out of my head! how am i ever supposed to practice that song if i keep repeating the same line over and over again?!?
Also, i redetermined that the crazy people in the room behind the testing room REALLY amuse me... dont really know why, but i find them extremely funny.
After thinking for a bit about this, or rather, these few songs that i am going to sing with Jenna, Mia and possibly Krystina, i realized that i dont think anyone has actually heard me sing on my own, meaning really sing and not to Rock Band, since sophmore year when i sang the intro to "God Help the Outcasts" from the Hunchback of Notre Dame for Whats-Her-Face in english class... huh.
(... note to self: writing a blog on paper and then typing it up later is a bit weird...)
--as always
PS: would everyone please stop saying GL! This close to show time we do not want to take any chances! ... i might just start carrying around a block of wood... Thanks.
So, i'm sitting here with a little over an hour left for the test with nothing to do, so why not use some of this extra test paper, right? After all, i didnt bring my book with me. Recollecting at my wanderings during the test, i find that the major thoughts were:
- Why is Justin wearing a pink shirt?
- this test is isnt that bad... oh look! Rascism!
- wow, some people write fast...
- 'Oh that is so not sanitary' ~ after Justin dropped a tissue on the ground and then used it
- i wish i ate breakfast
- Akk! i cant get that one line out of my head! how am i ever supposed to practice that song if i keep repeating the same line over and over again?!?
Also, i redetermined that the crazy people in the room behind the testing room REALLY amuse me... dont really know why, but i find them extremely funny.
After thinking for a bit about this, or rather, these few songs that i am going to sing with Jenna, Mia and possibly Krystina, i realized that i dont think anyone has actually heard me sing on my own, meaning really sing and not to Rock Band, since sophmore year when i sang the intro to "God Help the Outcasts" from the Hunchback of Notre Dame for Whats-Her-Face in english class... huh.
(... note to self: writing a blog on paper and then typing it up later is a bit weird...)
--as always
PS: would everyone please stop saying GL! This close to show time we do not want to take any chances! ... i might just start carrying around a block of wood... Thanks.
Monday, 4 May 2009
A fine little rant
balls.
first and final word...
my dad made dinner tonight. normally its ok when he makes dinner, if you can wrap your mind around the fact that your arteries may live a shorter life afterwords, but the thing is, he put alcohol in the sauce (we had pasta). now for anyone who knows, that was one of my things. i kinda did a lot of drinking before i got baptized, cut it in half after and then stopped all together until age 21. and i dont really do things of that sort in a small way, so when i say i stopped drinking, i mean i stopped everything, not even a taste, no drop of alcohol has touched my lips for about 2 and a half years.
i must be off my game or something (oh yeah sorry, lost game, balls) because, for some reason i didnt recognize the scent when he asked me to smell the sauce... and usually i can smell even the tiniest bit... so, suffice it to say i was a bit surprised went i tasted a red wine blend... sigh, well two and a half years gone... new count: 0
sad
on a different note: there are a few things that i find frustrating, but i think the one that i find the most frustrating is when people dont listen to anything you say because they dont think that you are competent enough to say something useful... now i'm not saying that this is the norm, but sometimes... i dont want to seem like i am complaining, because i have worked hard to get where i am now and it was working quite nicely, until it backfired... so all i am saying is that i am finding myself in a bit of a bind. finding that i need some better, less subtle, ways of showing my parents that i am fully capable of taking care of myself... that way they will let me move out.
and yes, i know that they need me, any dying person would want help, and i dont refute that... all i am asking is that i can have my own place outside of the house, not even off the property, just out of the house. that little room is big enough for one person, even two... and Adrianne, that offer is still open if i can ever get them to let me live out there, i mean it, you are welcome anytime... anyways, i think that i am going to have to try really hard to prove myself.
any ideas? anyone? Adrianne, any ideas? lately i have been overly helpful in certain areas, like doing the laundry and washing the dishes and cleaning up around the house. oh, Adrianne, my room is almost fully clean, you should see it, you'll blow your lid... lol. love ya sis.
IB tests have started, felling rather well about the english test. am pretty sure that i will do well on the history tests, need to do a final run through for math and then i should be good. the only ones that i am worried about are physics and french, and not even french that much. Nikki, i would really like your help with studying for physics, please and thank you and i will owe you one. gonna remember to wear my hat for the rest of the year, and going to try to not be late. lol never though i'd say that, i am almost never late of my own accord.
as an ending note to this fine little rant on how things have been recently:
balls.
--as always
first and final word...
my dad made dinner tonight. normally its ok when he makes dinner, if you can wrap your mind around the fact that your arteries may live a shorter life afterwords, but the thing is, he put alcohol in the sauce (we had pasta). now for anyone who knows, that was one of my things. i kinda did a lot of drinking before i got baptized, cut it in half after and then stopped all together until age 21. and i dont really do things of that sort in a small way, so when i say i stopped drinking, i mean i stopped everything, not even a taste, no drop of alcohol has touched my lips for about 2 and a half years.
i must be off my game or something (oh yeah sorry, lost game, balls) because, for some reason i didnt recognize the scent when he asked me to smell the sauce... and usually i can smell even the tiniest bit... so, suffice it to say i was a bit surprised went i tasted a red wine blend... sigh, well two and a half years gone... new count: 0
sad
on a different note: there are a few things that i find frustrating, but i think the one that i find the most frustrating is when people dont listen to anything you say because they dont think that you are competent enough to say something useful... now i'm not saying that this is the norm, but sometimes... i dont want to seem like i am complaining, because i have worked hard to get where i am now and it was working quite nicely, until it backfired... so all i am saying is that i am finding myself in a bit of a bind. finding that i need some better, less subtle, ways of showing my parents that i am fully capable of taking care of myself... that way they will let me move out.
and yes, i know that they need me, any dying person would want help, and i dont refute that... all i am asking is that i can have my own place outside of the house, not even off the property, just out of the house. that little room is big enough for one person, even two... and Adrianne, that offer is still open if i can ever get them to let me live out there, i mean it, you are welcome anytime... anyways, i think that i am going to have to try really hard to prove myself.
any ideas? anyone? Adrianne, any ideas? lately i have been overly helpful in certain areas, like doing the laundry and washing the dishes and cleaning up around the house. oh, Adrianne, my room is almost fully clean, you should see it, you'll blow your lid... lol. love ya sis.
IB tests have started, felling rather well about the english test. am pretty sure that i will do well on the history tests, need to do a final run through for math and then i should be good. the only ones that i am worried about are physics and french, and not even french that much. Nikki, i would really like your help with studying for physics, please and thank you and i will owe you one. gonna remember to wear my hat for the rest of the year, and going to try to not be late. lol never though i'd say that, i am almost never late of my own accord.
as an ending note to this fine little rant on how things have been recently:
balls.
--as always
Friday, 1 May 2009
Go ahead with your own life, leave me alone...
So, this song of the day was a bit inspired... to say the least...
"My Life" by Billy Joel
"Got a call from an old friend we used to be real close.
Said he couldn't go on the American way.
Closed the shop, sold the house, bought a ticket to the west coast.
Now he gives them a stand-up routine in LA
I don't need you to worry for me 'cause I'm alright
I don't want you to tell me it's time to come home
I don't care what you say anymore, this is my life
Go ahead with your own life, leave me alone.
I never said you had to offer me a second chance
I never said I was a victim of circumstance
I still belong, don't get me wrong
And you can speak your mind, but not on my time.
They will tell you you can't sleep alone in a strange place
Then they'll tell you you can't sleep with somebody else.
Ah, but sooner or later you sleep in your own space
Either way, it's okay, you wake up with yourself.
I don't need you to worry for me 'cause I'm alright
I don't want you to tell me it's time to come home
I don't care what you say anymore, this is my life
Go ahead with your own life, leave me alone.
I never said you had to offer me a second chance
I never said I was a victim of circumstance
I still belong, don't get me wrong
And you can speak your mind, but not on my time.
I don't care what you say anymore, this is my life
Go ahead with your own life, leave me alone.
(Keep it to yourself, it's my life)"
ok, well... here's the thing,: this is basically how i feel right now... and all i can say is that i have a renewed respect for how Brendan felt/feels about Chelsea. now, don't get me wrong, Alex and i are still friends, but i just wish he would stop texting me! i mean really, i doubt its any coincidence that he all of a sudden has a renewed interest in whatever it is i am interested in, but seriously, let it go...
i mean, following wednesday night's awkwardness, and i mean the most awkward conversation of my life..., i can't really see him being more of a jerk, but maybe that's just me... no, it's him... i wish we could just get over it and move on already...things happen Alex, it's life!
(now i know that this may seem really mean for me, but trust me, he's never going to read this, so it's ok... what i will say to him in person will be a little nicer)
anyways, i really have to commend Billy Joel. he is the most amazing guy ever. whenever i listen to his music i always get something out of it, or connect to it in some way... so, here's to you Billy.
--as always
"My Life" by Billy Joel
"Got a call from an old friend we used to be real close.
Said he couldn't go on the American way.
Closed the shop, sold the house, bought a ticket to the west coast.
Now he gives them a stand-up routine in LA
I don't need you to worry for me 'cause I'm alright
I don't want you to tell me it's time to come home
I don't care what you say anymore, this is my life
Go ahead with your own life, leave me alone.
I never said you had to offer me a second chance
I never said I was a victim of circumstance
I still belong, don't get me wrong
And you can speak your mind, but not on my time.
They will tell you you can't sleep alone in a strange place
Then they'll tell you you can't sleep with somebody else.
Ah, but sooner or later you sleep in your own space
Either way, it's okay, you wake up with yourself.
I don't need you to worry for me 'cause I'm alright
I don't want you to tell me it's time to come home
I don't care what you say anymore, this is my life
Go ahead with your own life, leave me alone.
I never said you had to offer me a second chance
I never said I was a victim of circumstance
I still belong, don't get me wrong
And you can speak your mind, but not on my time.
I don't care what you say anymore, this is my life
Go ahead with your own life, leave me alone.
(Keep it to yourself, it's my life)"
ok, well... here's the thing,: this is basically how i feel right now... and all i can say is that i have a renewed respect for how Brendan felt/feels about Chelsea. now, don't get me wrong, Alex and i are still friends, but i just wish he would stop texting me! i mean really, i doubt its any coincidence that he all of a sudden has a renewed interest in whatever it is i am interested in, but seriously, let it go...
i mean, following wednesday night's awkwardness, and i mean the most awkward conversation of my life..., i can't really see him being more of a jerk, but maybe that's just me... no, it's him... i wish we could just get over it and move on already...things happen Alex, it's life!
(now i know that this may seem really mean for me, but trust me, he's never going to read this, so it's ok... what i will say to him in person will be a little nicer)
anyways, i really have to commend Billy Joel. he is the most amazing guy ever. whenever i listen to his music i always get something out of it, or connect to it in some way... so, here's to you Billy.
--as always
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