A fine little rant

balls.

first and final word...



my dad made dinner tonight. normally its ok when he makes dinner, if you can wrap your mind around the fact that your arteries may live a shorter life afterwords, but the thing is, he put alcohol in the sauce (we had pasta). now for anyone who knows, that was one of my things. i kinda did a lot of drinking before i got baptized, cut it in half after and then stopped all together until age 21. and i dont really do things of that sort in a small way, so when i say i stopped drinking, i mean i stopped everything, not even a taste, no drop of alcohol has touched my lips for about 2 and a half years.

i must be off my game or something (oh yeah sorry, lost game, balls) because, for some reason i didnt recognize the scent when he asked me to smell the sauce... and usually i can smell even the tiniest bit... so, suffice it to say i was a bit surprised went i tasted a red wine blend... sigh, well two and a half years gone... new count: 0
sad



on a different note: there are a few things that i find frustrating, but i think the one that i find the most frustrating is when people dont listen to anything you say because they dont think that you are competent enough to say something useful... now i'm not saying that this is the norm, but sometimes... i dont want to seem like i am complaining, because i have worked hard to get where i am now and it was working quite nicely, until it backfired... so all i am saying is that i am finding myself in a bit of a bind. finding that i need some better, less subtle, ways of showing my parents that i am fully capable of taking care of myself... that way they will let me move out.

and yes, i know that they need me, any dying person would want help, and i dont refute that... all i am asking is that i can have my own place outside of the house, not even off the property, just out of the house. that little room is big enough for one person, even two... and Adrianne, that offer is still open if i can ever get them to let me live out there, i mean it, you are welcome anytime... anyways, i think that i am going to have to try really hard to prove myself.

any ideas? anyone? Adrianne, any ideas? lately i have been overly helpful in certain areas, like doing the laundry and washing the dishes and cleaning up around the house. oh, Adrianne, my room is almost fully clean, you should see it, you'll blow your lid... lol. love ya sis.



IB tests have started, felling rather well about the english test. am pretty sure that i will do well on the history tests, need to do a final run through for math and then i should be good. the only ones that i am worried about are physics and french, and not even french that much. Nikki, i would really like your help with studying for physics, please and thank you and i will owe you one. gonna remember to wear my hat for the rest of the year, and going to try to not be late. lol never though i'd say that, i am almost never late of my own accord.



as an ending note to this fine little rant on how things have been recently:

balls.


--as always