"Welcome To Wherever You Are" by Bon Jovi
"Maybe we're all different
But we're still the same
We all got the blood of Eden
Running through our veins
I know sometimes
It's hard for you to see
You come between just who you are
And who you want to be
If you feel alone and lost and need a friend
Remember, every new beginning
Is some beginning's end
Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life
You've made it this far
Welcome, you've got to believe
That right here, right now
You're exactly where you're supposed to be
Welcome to wherever you are
When everybody's in
And you're left out
And you feel you're drowning
In a shadow of a doubt
Everyone's a miracle
In their own way
Just listen to yourself
Not what other people say
When it seems you're lost, alone and feeling down
Remember, everybody's different
Just take a look around
Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life
You've made it this far
Welcome, you've got to believe
That right here, right now
You're exactly where you're supposed to be
Be who you want to be
Be who you are
Everyone's a hero
Everyone's a star
When you want to give up
And your heart's about to break
Remember that you're perfect
God makes no mistakes
Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life
You've made it this far
Welcome, you've got to believe
Right here, right now
You're exactly where you're supposed to be
Welcome to wherever you are"
Believe. Do. Change.
--as always
Wednesday, 24 February 2010
Tuesday, 23 February 2010
I recommend biting off more than you can chew
"You Learn" by Alanis Morissette
"I recommend getting your heart trampled on to anyone
I recommend walking around naked in your living room
Swallow it down (what a jagged little pill)
It feels so good (swimming in your stomach)
Wait until the dust settles
You live, you learn
You love, you learn
You cry, you learn
You lose, you learn
You bleed, you learn
You scream, you learn
I recommend biting off more than you can chew to anyone
I certainly do
I recommend sticking your foot in your mouth at any time
Feel free
Throw it down (the caution blocks you from the wind)
Hold it up (to the rays)
You wait and see when the smoke clears
You live, you learn
You love, you learn
You cry, you learn
You lose, you learn
You bleed, you learn
You scream, you learn
Wear it out (the way a three year old would do)
Melt it down (you're gonna have to eventually anyway)
The fire trucks are coming up around the bend
You live, you learn
You love, you learn
You cry, you learn
You lose, you learn
You bleed, you learn
You scream, you learn
You grieve, you learn
You choke, you learn
You laugh, you learn
You choose, you learn
You pray, you learn
You ask, you learn
You live, you learn"
Dream.
--as always
"I recommend getting your heart trampled on to anyone
I recommend walking around naked in your living room
Swallow it down (what a jagged little pill)
It feels so good (swimming in your stomach)
Wait until the dust settles
You live, you learn
You love, you learn
You cry, you learn
You lose, you learn
You bleed, you learn
You scream, you learn
I recommend biting off more than you can chew to anyone
I certainly do
I recommend sticking your foot in your mouth at any time
Feel free
Throw it down (the caution blocks you from the wind)
Hold it up (to the rays)
You wait and see when the smoke clears
You live, you learn
You love, you learn
You cry, you learn
You lose, you learn
You bleed, you learn
You scream, you learn
Wear it out (the way a three year old would do)
Melt it down (you're gonna have to eventually anyway)
The fire trucks are coming up around the bend
You live, you learn
You love, you learn
You cry, you learn
You lose, you learn
You bleed, you learn
You scream, you learn
You grieve, you learn
You choke, you learn
You laugh, you learn
You choose, you learn
You pray, you learn
You ask, you learn
You live, you learn"
Dream.
--as always
Monday, 22 February 2010
I don't go there cause I don't want to
"Back 2 Good" by Matchbox 20
"(Not normal)
(Not normal, no)
(Not normal)
It's nothing,
It's so normal
You just stand there
I could say so much
But I don't go there
Cause I don't want to
I was thinking if
You were lonely
Maybe we could leave here
And no one would know
At least not to the point
That we would think so
And everyone here knows everyone here
Is thinking about somebody else
Well, it's best if we all keep this under our heads
But I couldn't tell if anyone here
Was feeling the way I do
Well, I'm lonely now
And I don't know how
To get it back to good
(Not normal)
(Not normal, no)
(Not normal)
This don't mean that
You own me
Well, this ain't no good
In fact, it's phony as hell
But things work out
Just like you wanted too
If you see me out
You don't know me
Try to turn your head
Try to give me some room
To figure out
Just what I'm going to do
Cause everyone here hates everyone here
For doing just like they do
And it's best if we all keep this quiet instead
And I couldn't tell why everyone here
Was doing me like they do
But I'm sorry now
And I don't know how
To get it back to good
(Not normal)
(Not normal, no)
(Not normal)
Well everyone here is wondering what it's like
To be with somebody else
And everyone here's to blame
And everyone here gets caught up
In the pleasure of the pain
Well, everyone here hides
Shades of shame
But looking inside we're the same
We're the same
We're all grown now
But we don't know how
To get it back to good
(Not normal)
(Not normal, no)
(Not normal)
Well everyone here knows everyone here
Is thinking about somebody else
And it's best if we all keep this under our heads
See, I couldn't tell now, if anyone here
Was feeling the way I do
Well, it's over now
And I don't know how
Guess it's over now
There's no getting back to good
(Not normal)
(Not normal, no)
(Not normal)
(Not normal)
(Not normal)
(Not normal)"
Cope.
--as always
"(Not normal)
(Not normal, no)
(Not normal)
It's nothing,
It's so normal
You just stand there
I could say so much
But I don't go there
Cause I don't want to
I was thinking if
You were lonely
Maybe we could leave here
And no one would know
At least not to the point
That we would think so
And everyone here knows everyone here
Is thinking about somebody else
Well, it's best if we all keep this under our heads
But I couldn't tell if anyone here
Was feeling the way I do
Well, I'm lonely now
And I don't know how
To get it back to good
(Not normal)
(Not normal, no)
(Not normal)
This don't mean that
You own me
Well, this ain't no good
In fact, it's phony as hell
But things work out
Just like you wanted too
If you see me out
You don't know me
Try to turn your head
Try to give me some room
To figure out
Just what I'm going to do
Cause everyone here hates everyone here
For doing just like they do
And it's best if we all keep this quiet instead
And I couldn't tell why everyone here
Was doing me like they do
But I'm sorry now
And I don't know how
To get it back to good
(Not normal)
(Not normal, no)
(Not normal)
Well everyone here is wondering what it's like
To be with somebody else
And everyone here's to blame
And everyone here gets caught up
In the pleasure of the pain
Well, everyone here hides
Shades of shame
But looking inside we're the same
We're the same
We're all grown now
But we don't know how
To get it back to good
(Not normal)
(Not normal, no)
(Not normal)
Well everyone here knows everyone here
Is thinking about somebody else
And it's best if we all keep this under our heads
See, I couldn't tell now, if anyone here
Was feeling the way I do
Well, it's over now
And I don't know how
Guess it's over now
There's no getting back to good
(Not normal)
(Not normal, no)
(Not normal)
(Not normal)
(Not normal)
(Not normal)"
Cope.
--as always
Sunday, 21 February 2010
And the wheels keep spinning 'round
"I Need Some Sleep" by Eels
"I need some sleep
It can't go on like this
I tried counting sheep
But there's one I always miss
Everyone says I'm getting down too low
Everyone says 'you just gotta let it go'
You just gotta let it go
You just gotta let it go
I need some sleep
Time to put the old horse down
I'm in too deep
And the wheels keep spinning 'round
Everyone says I'm getting down too low
Everyone says 'you just gotta let it go'
You just gotta let it go
You just gotta let it go
You just gotta let it go
You just gotta let it go
Just gotta let it go"
Remember.
--as always
"I need some sleep
It can't go on like this
I tried counting sheep
But there's one I always miss
Everyone says I'm getting down too low
Everyone says 'you just gotta let it go'
You just gotta let it go
You just gotta let it go
I need some sleep
Time to put the old horse down
I'm in too deep
And the wheels keep spinning 'round
Everyone says I'm getting down too low
Everyone says 'you just gotta let it go'
You just gotta let it go
You just gotta let it go
You just gotta let it go
You just gotta let it go
Just gotta let it go"
Remember.
--as always
Saturday, 20 February 2010
People speak of love
"In The Shape Of A Heart" by Jackson Browne
"It was a ruby that she wore
On a chain around her neck
In the shape of a heart
In the shape of a heart
It was a time I won't forget
For the sorrow and regret
And the shape of a heart
And the shape of a heart
I guess I never knew
What she was talking about
I guess I never knew
What she was living without
People speak of love
Don't know what they're thinking of
Wait around for the one
Who fits just like a glove
Speak in terms of belief and belonging
Try to fit some name to their longing
People speak of love
There was a hole left in the wall
From some ancient fight
About the size of a fist
Or something thrown that had missed
And there were other holes as well
In the house where our nights fell
Far too many to repair
In the time that we were there
People speak of love
Don't know what they're thinking of
Reach out to each other
Through the push and shove
Speak in terms of a life and the learning
Try to think of a word for the burning
You keep it up
You try so hard
To keep a life from coming apart
And never know
What breaches and faults are concealed
In the shape of a heart
In the shape of a heart
In the shape of a heart
It was the ruby that she wore
On a stand beside the bed
In the hour before dawn
When I knew she was gone
And I held it in my hand
For a little while
And dropped it into the wall
Let it go and heard it fall
I...
I guess I never knew
What she was talking about
I guess I never knew
What she was living without
People speak of love
Don't know what they're thinking of
Wait around for the one
Who fits just like a glove
Speak in terms of a life and the living
Try to find the word for forgiving
You keep it up
You try so hard
To keep a life from coming apart
And never know
The shallows and the unseen reefs
That are there from the start
In the shape of a heart
In the shape of a heart
In the shape of a heart
In the shape of a heart
In the shape of a heart"
Dance.
--as always
"It was a ruby that she wore
On a chain around her neck
In the shape of a heart
In the shape of a heart
It was a time I won't forget
For the sorrow and regret
And the shape of a heart
And the shape of a heart
I guess I never knew
What she was talking about
I guess I never knew
What she was living without
People speak of love
Don't know what they're thinking of
Wait around for the one
Who fits just like a glove
Speak in terms of belief and belonging
Try to fit some name to their longing
People speak of love
There was a hole left in the wall
From some ancient fight
About the size of a fist
Or something thrown that had missed
And there were other holes as well
In the house where our nights fell
Far too many to repair
In the time that we were there
People speak of love
Don't know what they're thinking of
Reach out to each other
Through the push and shove
Speak in terms of a life and the learning
Try to think of a word for the burning
You keep it up
You try so hard
To keep a life from coming apart
And never know
What breaches and faults are concealed
In the shape of a heart
In the shape of a heart
In the shape of a heart
It was the ruby that she wore
On a stand beside the bed
In the hour before dawn
When I knew she was gone
And I held it in my hand
For a little while
And dropped it into the wall
Let it go and heard it fall
I...
I guess I never knew
What she was talking about
I guess I never knew
What she was living without
People speak of love
Don't know what they're thinking of
Wait around for the one
Who fits just like a glove
Speak in terms of a life and the living
Try to find the word for forgiving
You keep it up
You try so hard
To keep a life from coming apart
And never know
The shallows and the unseen reefs
That are there from the start
In the shape of a heart
In the shape of a heart
In the shape of a heart
In the shape of a heart
In the shape of a heart"
Dance.
--as always
Friday, 19 February 2010
More a fool who's not afraid of rejection
"Sleeping With The Television On" by Billy Joel
"I've been watching you waltz all night, Diane
Nobody's found a way behind your defenses
They never notice the zap gun in your hand
Until you're pointing it and stunning their senses
All night long, all night long
You'll shoot 'em down because
You're waiting for somebody good to come on
(All night long, all night long)
But you'll be sleeping with the television on
You say you're looking for someone solid here
You can't be bothered with those just-for-the-night boys
Tonight unless you take some kind of chances, dear
Tomorrow morning you'll wake up with the white noise
All night long, all night long
You're only standing there
Cause somebody once did somebody wrong
(All night long, all night long)
But you'll be sleeping with the television on
Your eyes are saying 'talk to me' (talk to me)
But your attitude is 'don't waste my time'
(Your eyes are saying talk to me, talk to me)
But you won't hear a word cause
It just might be the same old line
This isn't easy for me to say, Diane
I know you don't need anybody's protection
I really wish I was less of a thinking man
And more a fool who's not afraid of rejection
All night long, all night long
I'll just be standing here cause
I know I don't have the guts to come on
(All night long, all night long)
And I'll be sleeping with the television on
Your eyes are saying 'talk to me' (talk to me)
But my attitude is 'boy, don't waste your time'
(Your eyes are saying talk to me, talk to me)
But I won't say a word cause
It just might be somebody else's same old line
All night long, all night long
We'll just be standing here
Cause somebody might do somebody wrong
(All night long, all night long)
And we'll be sleeping with the television on
Sleeping with the television
Sleeping with the television
Sleeping with the television on
Sleeping with the television on"
Strength.
--as always
"I've been watching you waltz all night, Diane
Nobody's found a way behind your defenses
They never notice the zap gun in your hand
Until you're pointing it and stunning their senses
All night long, all night long
You'll shoot 'em down because
You're waiting for somebody good to come on
(All night long, all night long)
But you'll be sleeping with the television on
You say you're looking for someone solid here
You can't be bothered with those just-for-the-night boys
Tonight unless you take some kind of chances, dear
Tomorrow morning you'll wake up with the white noise
All night long, all night long
You're only standing there
Cause somebody once did somebody wrong
(All night long, all night long)
But you'll be sleeping with the television on
Your eyes are saying 'talk to me' (talk to me)
But your attitude is 'don't waste my time'
(Your eyes are saying talk to me, talk to me)
But you won't hear a word cause
It just might be the same old line
This isn't easy for me to say, Diane
I know you don't need anybody's protection
I really wish I was less of a thinking man
And more a fool who's not afraid of rejection
All night long, all night long
I'll just be standing here cause
I know I don't have the guts to come on
(All night long, all night long)
And I'll be sleeping with the television on
Your eyes are saying 'talk to me' (talk to me)
But my attitude is 'boy, don't waste your time'
(Your eyes are saying talk to me, talk to me)
But I won't say a word cause
It just might be somebody else's same old line
All night long, all night long
We'll just be standing here
Cause somebody might do somebody wrong
(All night long, all night long)
And we'll be sleeping with the television on
Sleeping with the television
Sleeping with the television
Sleeping with the television on
Sleeping with the television on"
Strength.
--as always
Thursday, 18 February 2010
Maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud
"Someday" by Rob Thomas
"You can go
You can start all over again
You can try to find a way
To make another day go by
You can hide
Hold all your feelings inside
You can try to carry on
When all you want to do is cry
And maybe someday
We'll figure all this out
Try to put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to make things better
Now that maybe someday
We'll live our lives out loud
We'll be better off somehow
Someday
Now wait
And try to find another mistake
If you throw it all away
Then maybe you can change your mind
You can run
And when everything is over and done
You can shine a little light
On everything around you
Man, it's good to be someone
And maybe someday
We'll figure all this out
Try to put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to make things better
Now that maybe someday
We'll live our lives out loud
We'll be better off somehow
Someday
And I don't want to wait
I just want to know
I just want to hear you tell me
So, give it to me straight
Tell it to me slow
Cause maybe someday
We'll figure all this out
We'll put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to just feel better
Now that maybe someday
We'll live our lives out loud
We'll be better off somehow
Someday
Cause sometimes we don't really notice
Just how good it can get
So maybe we should start all over
Start all over again
Cause sometimes we don't really notice
Just how good it can get
So maybe we should start all over
Start all over again"
Calm.
--as always
"You can go
You can start all over again
You can try to find a way
To make another day go by
You can hide
Hold all your feelings inside
You can try to carry on
When all you want to do is cry
And maybe someday
We'll figure all this out
Try to put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to make things better
Now that maybe someday
We'll live our lives out loud
We'll be better off somehow
Someday
Now wait
And try to find another mistake
If you throw it all away
Then maybe you can change your mind
You can run
And when everything is over and done
You can shine a little light
On everything around you
Man, it's good to be someone
And maybe someday
We'll figure all this out
Try to put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to make things better
Now that maybe someday
We'll live our lives out loud
We'll be better off somehow
Someday
And I don't want to wait
I just want to know
I just want to hear you tell me
So, give it to me straight
Tell it to me slow
Cause maybe someday
We'll figure all this out
We'll put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to just feel better
Now that maybe someday
We'll live our lives out loud
We'll be better off somehow
Someday
Cause sometimes we don't really notice
Just how good it can get
So maybe we should start all over
Start all over again
Cause sometimes we don't really notice
Just how good it can get
So maybe we should start all over
Start all over again"
Calm.
--as always
Wednesday, 17 February 2010
I'm so smart, too bad I can't get anything figured out
A Week of Songs
i'm starting a week of songs. one song a day for a week.
... maybe we'll make it an 8 day week...
"Falling For The First Time" by Barenaked Ladies
"I'm so cool, too bad I'm a loser
I'm so smart, too bad I can't get anything figured out
I'm so brave, too bad I'm a baby
I'm so fly, that's probably why it
Feels just like I'm falling for the first time
I'm so green, it's really amazing
I'm so clean, too bad I can't get all the dirt off of me
I'm so sane, it's driving me crazy
It's so strange, I can't believe it
Feels just like I'm falling for the first time
Anyone perfect must be lying
Anything easy has its cost
Anyone plain can be lovely
Anyone loved can be lost
What if I lost my direction?
What if I lost sense of time?
What if I nursed this infection?
Maybe the worst is behind
It feels just like I'm falling for the first time
It feels just like I'm falling for the first time
I'm so chill, no wonder it's freezing
I'm so still, I just can't keep my fingers out of anything
I'm so thrilled to finally be failing
I'm so done, turn me over cause it
Feels just like I'm falling for the first time
Anything plain can be lovely
Anything loved can be lost
Maybe I lost my direction
What if our love is the cost?
Anyone perfect must be lying
Anything easy has its cost
Anyone plain can be lovely
Anyone loved can be lost
What if I lost my direction?
What if I lost sense of time?
What if I nursed this infection?
Maybe the worst is behind"
Breathe.
--as always
i'm starting a week of songs. one song a day for a week.
... maybe we'll make it an 8 day week...
"Falling For The First Time" by Barenaked Ladies
"I'm so cool, too bad I'm a loser
I'm so smart, too bad I can't get anything figured out
I'm so brave, too bad I'm a baby
I'm so fly, that's probably why it
Feels just like I'm falling for the first time
I'm so green, it's really amazing
I'm so clean, too bad I can't get all the dirt off of me
I'm so sane, it's driving me crazy
It's so strange, I can't believe it
Feels just like I'm falling for the first time
Anyone perfect must be lying
Anything easy has its cost
Anyone plain can be lovely
Anyone loved can be lost
What if I lost my direction?
What if I lost sense of time?
What if I nursed this infection?
Maybe the worst is behind
It feels just like I'm falling for the first time
It feels just like I'm falling for the first time
I'm so chill, no wonder it's freezing
I'm so still, I just can't keep my fingers out of anything
I'm so thrilled to finally be failing
I'm so done, turn me over cause it
Feels just like I'm falling for the first time
Anything plain can be lovely
Anything loved can be lost
Maybe I lost my direction
What if our love is the cost?
Anyone perfect must be lying
Anything easy has its cost
Anyone plain can be lovely
Anyone loved can be lost
What if I lost my direction?
What if I lost sense of time?
What if I nursed this infection?
Maybe the worst is behind"
Breathe.
--as always
Sunday, 14 February 2010
Valentine's day
Valentine's day has an odd connotation for me... i don't think that i have had a 'good,' or non-awkward, Valentine's day in several years. the last good Valentine's day that i can remember was when i was a little kid and i was out looking for plastic eggs full of candy.
yesterday i went to a Valentine's dance with the campus ministries from our churches in the area. it was fun. i danced and all... the conversations i had with my date made me a bit sad, though. we both agreed that we don't have an interest in anyone in our church at the moment and we both agreed, upon looking at all the couples, that we didn't think that a relationship with someone who didn't want to leave the valley was not a great idea.
not only do i agree with all of these things that we spoke of, but i am not ready for a relationship still. plus, my life is so complicated right now. almost beyond belief... i'm just trying to keep my head above water. i've been having these dreams about drowning...or dreams with lots of water, anyways... i've been avoiding sleep because of them. power naps have become my friends.
i spent today down in Long Beach. i guess it was better than being at home. another Valentine's day spent with my parents... at least this year it wasn't a date. lol
for all of you who hope. remember: breathe
--as always
yesterday i went to a Valentine's dance with the campus ministries from our churches in the area. it was fun. i danced and all... the conversations i had with my date made me a bit sad, though. we both agreed that we don't have an interest in anyone in our church at the moment and we both agreed, upon looking at all the couples, that we didn't think that a relationship with someone who didn't want to leave the valley was not a great idea.
not only do i agree with all of these things that we spoke of, but i am not ready for a relationship still. plus, my life is so complicated right now. almost beyond belief... i'm just trying to keep my head above water. i've been having these dreams about drowning...or dreams with lots of water, anyways... i've been avoiding sleep because of them. power naps have become my friends.
i spent today down in Long Beach. i guess it was better than being at home. another Valentine's day spent with my parents... at least this year it wasn't a date. lol
for all of you who hope. remember: breathe
--as always
Sunday, 7 February 2010
lol. wut?
why does life have to be so complicated? why can't i just go somewhere and be a hermit...?
I've been considering, or rather reconsidering, all of my options for living or providing for living. i'm getting conflicting information from my folks. my parents are concerned that i wont be able to balance things... i know i can. heck, what was IB if not the ultimate test to see if you can balance things??
my mother is also being a walking contradiction right now... she says that she wants me to show initiative and get a job and be self sufficient; and then she says that she doesn't want me to get a job because if i make too much money, she won't be able to claim me as a dependent on their taxes... and she NEEDS to claim me as a dependent... life sucks...
anyways... i'm thinking that i might join the military after i get my college degree. must investigate further... i'm also trying to move out but i dont want to leave on bad terms with my family. why does life have to be so complicated?
I've been considering, or rather reconsidering, all of my options for living or providing for living. i'm getting conflicting information from my folks. my parents are concerned that i wont be able to balance things... i know i can. heck, what was IB if not the ultimate test to see if you can balance things??
my mother is also being a walking contradiction right now... she says that she wants me to show initiative and get a job and be self sufficient; and then she says that she doesn't want me to get a job because if i make too much money, she won't be able to claim me as a dependent on their taxes... and she NEEDS to claim me as a dependent... life sucks...
anyways... i'm thinking that i might join the military after i get my college degree. must investigate further... i'm also trying to move out but i dont want to leave on bad terms with my family. why does life have to be so complicated?
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