And this is everything we need

"Take It All" by Adele

"Didn't I give it all, tried my best
Gave you everything I had
Everything and no less
Didn't I do it right? Did I let you down?
Maybe you got too used to
Having me around

Still how can you walk away
From all my tears
It's gonna be an empty road
Without me right here

But go on and take it
Take it all with you
Don't look back at this crumbling fool
Just take it all with my love
Take it all with my love

Maybe I should leave to help you see
Nothing gets better than this
And this is everything we need
So is it over? Is this really it?
You're giving up so easily
I thought you loved me more than this

But go on, go on and take it
Take it all with you
Don't look back at this crumbling fool
Just take it all with my love
Take it all with my love

I will change if I must
Slow it down and bring it home, I will adjust
Oh, if only, if only you knew
That everything I do is for you

But go on and take it
Take it all with you
Don't look back at this crumbling fool
Just take it
Take it all with you
Don't look back at this crumbling fool
Just take it all with my love
Take it all with my love
Take it all with my love"




I sang this song today for my voice class. I wore really tall heels, though and I almost fainted.  I think I did pretty well though, This weekend is my church's annual Woman's Day and I will be singing a version of "To Make You Feel My Love."  The last time I sang this song in public I had a bunch of people tell me that they really love that Adele song.  I had to refrain from lecturing them on how that particular song had been covered many different times by many different artists and that the original was written and performed by Bob Dylan... Oh well, that's the world I live in now...



--as always

Could I hold on to you

"City" by Sara Bareilles

"There's a harvest each Saturday night
At the bars filled with perfume
And hitching a ride
A place you could stand for one night
And get gone

And it's clear this conversation
Ain't doing a thing
'Cause these boys only listen to me when I sing
And I don't feel like singing tonight
Oh, the same song

Here in these deep city lights
Girl could get lost tonight
I finding every reason to be gone
There's nothing here to hold on to
Could I hold you

The situation's always the same
You've got your wolves in their clothes
Whispering Hollywood's name
Stealing gold from the silver they see
But it's not me

Here in these deep city lights
Girl could get lost tonight
I finding every reason to be gone
There's nothing here to hold on to
Could I hold you

Calling out
Somebody same me I feel like I'm fading away
Am I gone?
Calling out
Somebody save me I feel like I'm fading

No, no, no
No, no, no
No, no, no, no
Deep city lights
Girl could get lost tonight
I finding every reason to be gone
There's nothing here to hold on to
Could I hold on to you"







--as always

I tell myself all the things he surely meant to say

"Between The Lines" by Sara Bareilles

"Time to tell me the truth
To burden your mouth for what you say
No pieces of paper in the way
'Cause I can't continue
Pretending to choose
These opposite sides on which we fall
The loving you laters if at all
No right minds could wrong be this many times

My memory is cruel
I'm queen of attention to details
Defending intentions if he fails
Until now, he told me her name
It sounded familiar in a way
That I could have sworn
I'd heard him say it ten thousand times
Oh, if only I had been listening

Leave unsaid unspoken
Eyes wide shut unopened
You and me
Always between the lines
Between the lines

I thought I, thought I was ready to bleed
That we'd move from the shadows on the wall
And stand in the center of it all
Too late, two choices
To stay or to leave
Mine was so easy to uncover
He'd already left with the other
So I learned to listen through silence

Leave unsaid unspoken
Eyes wide shut unopened
You and me
Always be
You and me
Always be

I tell myself all the things he surely meant to say
Talk until the conversation doesn't stay on
"Wait for me, I'm almost ready"
When he meant "Let go"

Leave unsaid unspoken
Eyes wide shut unopened
You and me
Always be
You and me
Always between the lines
Between the lines
Between the lines"



This song is so beautiful and so tragically sad.  I think that's why I love it so much.  The tragic beauty.









--as always

And I find new colors to think in

"Red" by Sara Bareilles

"I've been down I've been out
I did it all on my own
It seems growing up
Didn't take long
I feel strange, I feel good
I feel better with you
You've changed, you should
'Cause I think I did too

Made my mistakes
I did a few things right
But it will take what it will take
Baby, that's life
You cannot change what you do not own
Everybody knows
But if you live deep and love strong
You get pretty damn close

It moves fast and it scares me
I close my eyes, oh but I still see

I'm fading in and out
What are you supposed to do save me now
From all of this danger you don't know how
And I'll find my way out
When I'm in the red
Listening to strangers inside my head
The darkening angels beneath the bed
I still see everything you said
Crimson in red

I shake and I smile
'Cause you said
Baby girl it may take a while
But take the good from the bad
And neverminds are never sure
So never leave them wanting more
What are you waiting for
How you love is who you are

I dive in and I sink in
And I find new colors to think in

I'm fading in and out
What are you supposed to do save me now
From all of this danger you don't know how
And I'll find my way out
When I'm in the red
Listening to strangers inside my head
The darkening angels beneath the bed
I still see everything you said
Crimson in red

In the distance
Is a line defining where I've been
The state I'm in
And ever since it began to slip
From my two hands I've been
Taunting fire, touching wires
Been believing liars
Everything they said
Painted in red
Painted in red
Painted in red

I am fading in and out
What are you gonna do
Save me now
From all of this danger you don't know how
I'll find my way out
When I'm in the red
Listening to strangers inside my head
The darkening angels beneath the bed
I still see what you said

What are you gonna do
No way for you to save me
What are you gonna do
Everything that you gave me
Is painted in red"






--as always

Only close my eyes and you are here with me

"One Sweet Love" by Sara Bareilles

"Just about the time the shadows call
I undress my mind and dare you to follow
Paint a portrait of my mystery
Only close my eyes and you are here with me

A nameless face to think I see
Can sit and watch the waves with me
Until they're gone
A heart I'd swear I'd recognize
Is made out of my own devices
Could I be wrong?

The time that I've taken
I pray is not wasted
Have I already tasted
My piece of one sweet love

Sleepless nights you creep inside of me
Paint your shadows on the breath that we share
You take more than just my sanity
You take my reason not to care

No ordinary wings I need
The sky itself will carry me back to you
The things I dream that I can do
I'd open up the moon for you
Just come down soon

The time that I've taken
I pray is not wasted
Have I already tasted
My piece of one sweet love
Ready and waiting
For a heart worth the breaking
But I'd settle for an honest mistake in
The name of one sweet love

Savor the sorrow to soften the pain
Sip on the southern rain
As I do I don't look, don't touch
Don't do anything
And hope that there is a you

The earth that is the space between
I banish it from under me to get to you
Your unexpected love provides
My solitary's suicide
Oh, I wish I knew

The time that I've taken
I pray is not wasted
Have I already tasted
My piece of one sweet love
Ready and waiting
For a heart worth the breaking
But I'd settle for an honest mistake in
The name of one sweet love
One sweet love"







This song speaks to me.  I used to wonder if the guy I had been dreaming of was really out there, or if I had already met the guy I was meant to be with and I had my chance and let it go.  But he was out there, the man I had been dreaming of, the man whom I never saw coming.  I am so blessed to have him and I am so relieved that I don't have to settle, for an honest mistake or otherwise! I have my one sweet love. :)



--as always