Wednesday, 16 February 2011

And I'm on my way to believing

"The Only Exception" by Paramore

"When I was younger I saw
My daddy cry and curse at the wind
He broke his own heart and I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that she would
Never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love if it does not exist

But darling, you are the only exception
Well, you are the only exception
Well, you are the only exception
Well, you are the only exception

Well, maybe I know somewhere
Deep in my soul that love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone or keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable distance
And up until now I had sworn to myself
That I'm content with loneliness
Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Well, you are the only exception
Well, you are the only exception
Well, you are the only exception
Well, you are the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality but I can't
Let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving in the morning when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream, oh oh oh

You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception

You are the only exception
Well, you are the only exception
You are the only exception
Well, you are the only exception
And I'm on my way to believing

Oh, and I'm on my way to believing"





I broke my own heart. I accept that and I'm putting the pieces back together. It might be taking a long time, a lot longer than I ever would have thought, but that's ok as long as I keep working on it. I've come so far and I know that I will never forget about all that I've been through and all that I've done, to myself and to others. I'm grateful for that. So many things are possible and I guess you could say that I'm on my way to believing in myself again.




--as always

Friday, 11 February 2011

After a hurricane comes a rainbow

"Firework" by Katy Perry

"Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting through the wind
Wanting to start again
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in

Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under screams, but no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
'Cause there's a spark in you
You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine
Just own the night like the Fourth of July

'Cause baby, you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go oh oh oh
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go oh oh oh
You're gonna leave 'em falling down-own-own

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If only you knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe your reason why all the doors are closed
Is so you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightening bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know
You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine
Just own the night like the Fourth of July

'Cause baby, you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go oh oh oh
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go oh oh oh
You're gonna leave 'em falling down-own-own

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through-ooh-ooh

'Cause baby, you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go oh oh oh
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go oh oh oh
You're gonna leave 'em falling down-own-own

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon"




As people we are so complex, like a house of cards with many levels. We have disasters and we get our hearts broken. We cry, we laugh and sometimes we forget the things that are the most important in life. Valentine's day is a day all about love: the one thing that has been proven to heal many ailments, but love is also a leading cause of sadness.

As humans, we have layer upon layer of history and experiences and each of those things defines who we are. Each time we have been encouraged or hurt, each time we've loved or been loved - all these things define who we are, they make us unique. Sometimes we forget to enjoy the small things in life, the things that make us individuals. We forget about love, especially when we've been hurt, but after the whirlwinds of emotional pain have subsided it gets easier to see all the color that life, and love, has to offer. So, don't be afraid to let your colors show, let people love you for everything that you are.




--as always