Go ahead with your own life, leave me alone...

So, this song of the day was a bit inspired... to say the least...

"My Life" by Billy Joel

"Got a call from an old friend we used to be real close.
Said he couldn't go on the American way.
Closed the shop, sold the house, bought a ticket to the west coast.
Now he gives them a stand-up routine in LA

I don't need you to worry for me 'cause I'm alright
I don't want you to tell me it's time to come home
I don't care what you say anymore, this is my life
Go ahead with your own life, leave me alone.

I never said you had to offer me a second chance
I never said I was a victim of circumstance
I still belong, don't get me wrong
And you can speak your mind, but not on my time.

They will tell you you can't sleep alone in a strange place
Then they'll tell you you can't sleep with somebody else.
Ah, but sooner or later you sleep in your own space
Either way, it's okay, you wake up with yourself.

I don't need you to worry for me 'cause I'm alright
I don't want you to tell me it's time to come home
I don't care what you say anymore, this is my life
Go ahead with your own life, leave me alone.

I never said you had to offer me a second chance
I never said I was a victim of circumstance
I still belong, don't get me wrong
And you can speak your mind, but not on my time.

I don't care what you say anymore, this is my life
Go ahead with your own life, leave me alone.
(Keep it to yourself, it's my life)"

ok, well... here's the thing,: this is basically how i feel right now... and all i can say is that i have a renewed respect for how Brendan felt/feels about Chelsea. now, don't get me wrong, Alex and i are still friends, but i just wish he would stop texting me! i mean really, i doubt its any coincidence that he all of a sudden has a renewed interest in whatever it is i am interested in, but seriously, let it go...

i mean, following wednesday night's awkwardness, and i mean the most awkward conversation of my life..., i can't really see him being more of a jerk, but maybe that's just me... no, it's him... i wish we could just get over it and move on already...things happen Alex, it's life!

(now i know that this may seem really mean for me, but trust me, he's never going to read this, so it's ok... what i will say to him in person will be a little nicer)

anyways, i really have to commend Billy Joel. he is the most amazing guy ever. whenever i listen to his music i always get something out of it, or connect to it in some way... so, here's to you Billy.


--as always