And all I can taste is this moment

"Iris" by The Goo Goo Dolls

"And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
And sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am"




Sometimes I feel like this. Like I don't want to come out of my shell, like I only want to be around a few people at a time. As if there were less risk that way, with fewer people around. I think I find it hard to be open with people; it's hard to let the inside out. Part of it is the way I was raised, or rather the the results of the way I was raised: where it was emotionally safer to be alone and introverted. The other part is circumstance and conditioning from my life experiences. I've been working on it, though. I think I've become much better at sharing my inner self with others. :)



--as always